Wow. Well over three months before I've talked to anybody here. Should I even come back? I know at least one person is mad at me for my lack of communication. I haven't talked to her in so long, especially when she needed it the most (which I felt much shame over), now I'm even afraid to try again. Why did I do that? So stupid...(knees head)
I have no excuse. A number of things lead to my falling out (such as the loss of the 14th Order, which I still feel I could've saved), but I still could've come back. I dunno...lately I've lost my will to do art. I haven't doodled anything in months. I guess after I failed a drawing course I was taking...and dropped out of my design 2 class...I just don't feel like doing art anymore. But I still could've come back and at the very least said something, instead of burying it like i did...(sigh)
I'm not even sure if I still want to do this. Maybe I SHOULD just leave permanently, and wait for sweet, sweet death.....if I do, then this'll probably be the last I'll be heard of.
Again, I give no excuses, nor do I expect any apologies...I just, for the longest time, didn't CARE. And I feel bad about it.....really bad.